Surrender

Written: November 2017
Recorded: January 2021

Credits: Liam Johnson (guitars, vocals, bass)

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Lyrics:

There's a place in my heart

Where the lonely bird sings

Of the pain and the suffering

That tomorrow always brings

And the more I listen

The more it feeds on my soul

'Til there's nothing left of the love I felt

'Til there's just an empty hole

(Chorus)

Take me in your arms until the morning

And I'll wake up and surrender my heart

To you

There's a place in the dark

Where the secrets stay untold

And the brave ones who keep searching on

Have their own dear lives unfold

And the more I listen

The more it feeds my soul

'Til there's nothing left but the love I felt

Many years ago

(Chorus)

(Instrumental)

(Chorus x2)

Surrender acknowledges the more pessimistic feelings of hopelessness and anxiety and examines the truth about what really causes the suffering. This was one of the first vocal songs I had ever written and at the time I was very interested in the relationship between the ego and the soul, or the higher self and the lower self. The two verses represent these viewpoints with the ego described in the first and the soul in the second.


The lyrics themselves are deliberately written almost cryptically, which reflects upon the vague nature and the confusing overlap between the two elements that they represent. The "lonely bird" depicts the delicate and fragile ego which sits in the heart and is constantly afraid of being killed, therefore crippling us with thoughts of doom and gloom. The "place in the dark" depicts the part of us that many soul-searchers and meditators have found when they lose themselves and feel one with the universe.

The central message of the song lies in the simple but powerful sentiment of the chorus. It describes the moment when you've listened too long to the worrying thoughts of your own ego and decide to just let it go completely. It's the moment you surrender to the desires of your soul. It's when you say "f**k it" and do what you've always been too afraid to do otherwise. Despite the negative feelings, you still choose to be optimistic.

This track also features the only electric guitar solo in the album, replacing a vocal section in the process. Growing up, I loved learning songs and instrumentals that featured heavy shred solos that tested my abilities to the max. Including a similar type of solo in this track felt like a fitting tribute to that part in my life where I first decided to take guitar playing seriously and forge a career out of it, as well as a means of paying homage to the guitarists I looked up to at the time.

Photo: taken at Surprise View in the Peak District